tu tudu tudu tutudu tu tudu tudu tutudu

lou reed, bob marley and the pixies accompany us at our breakfast in another zagreb kitchen. our new host is tomi. tomi is a thirty three year old doctor in the psychiatric hospital. tomi enjoys wine, smokes seldom but with pleasure,  loves having guests more than anything and for the past three years has taken a decorative theatrical photograph of every one of them. tomi is from dubrovnik, which where most of the croatian blueblood comes from.

tonight tomi, ana and i are hosting a dinner party for ten with the theme of sculpted food, mostly buildings and animals and of being as comfortable in and with your body as possible, costumes or not, clothes or not. we will cook together when tomi gets home from work at the mental hospital. tomi apartment will be the setting of this play/photoshoot/dinner/dance party. there is the plastic bambi, the red phone, the vast collection vintage lamps and chairs, mirrored serving trays, tall cealings and dark blue living room furniture. it's got a blue velvet feeling to it.

the difference between honest silence
and false speeches
beestings my chest
to unravel the knots without getting bored
circus performace and audience swtich places
the safety of the dark rowed seats no more
the warmth of converstation
we cling to it even closer where on the road
while dreaming of honest silence

wednesday we are going again to the gypsy flee market. a got another disposable camera, twenty seven market pictures. some call hrelich (the market) church. it's every sunday and wednesday all year and one can confess and listen to the beautiful sermon of barter and rubble.

a rainy morning with rainy thoughts. sending blessing to all the lovely people who might be reading this or thinking of me and each other. we live day to day and to be more decisive about who we will love forever will make us happier. i love you today even if i know you much screw me over tomorrow. diana from the old crackchaos apartment waved that phrase around like a banner.

good bye and i love you