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when you panic you grab the steering bars so tight and you can hardly breathe and maneuvering becomes torturous and nearly impossible, and you might get to where you planned to go, and if you do, you will be exhausted and remember very little of the journey. but if you relax, the panic will leave and even if you are just learning to ride, it will become pleasant and much easier to ride. and you will still arrive at the destination you were originally orienting yourself towards so passionately, but you will have breathed fresh air, noticed much beauty and gotten better at riding a bike. and here it is, today's nine hour long conversation boiled down. relaxing not in the sense of limpness and lifelessness, but in the sense of relaxing to survive, relaxing because if you don't, you will crash, break your neck, or even worse - be constantly unhappy not only with the world around, but with your own life efforts. zagreb's last words of wisdom for me tonight before we split to Split. goodnight